"Wake up," I whisper to my son.
He looks frail, minus the bluster and boisterousness of the day, curled in his grey woollen pyjamas under a comforter, eyes half-open and little red blood vessels visible under his pale skin.
"my body is hurting me" he groans with the peculiar turn of phrase that he's developing lately, where he'll say "my tooth is hurting me" instead of "I have a toothache."
"Well, maybe if you do a little less karate chopping in the day and get more sleep and
eat food instead of playing with it," I begin.. only to realize that he's gone back to sleep.
This is the kid who'd been manfully fighting sleep late last night to make sure he didn't miss suhoor for his very first fast? He's sleeping like a baby now that it's time ...and short of physically lifting him out of bed (and waking the others in the process) there's no way I can get him to wake up.
So I let him sleep and move on to the other room, where R-R and my husband are eating.
"He didn't wake up?" they ask
"No.. maybe he can fast another day in shaa Allaah."
In the morning, all hell breaks loose.
He jumps out of bed with an accusing: "You didn't wake me!!"
'But I did!
You didn't wake up..now have your bath and breakfast and let's tackle all that homework."
He has determination written all over his stubborn square jaw.
"I'm not having breakfast..I'm fasting." "You can't ..not like this…you have to get up and eat suhoor and make a niyah "
"I did. I made my niyah last night before sleeping that I'm fasting today." Needless to say, there's nothing I can do about it.
A couple of hours later, he has homework sheets strewn all over the study and is watching his siblings eat.
"You sure you're fasting? You could keep a half-day fast you know, or a half-jaw one," I tell him.
"What's that?"
"Well, only one side of your mouth is allowed to eat," I explain
"chuh.. that's for babies..just keep my share of the fudge brownies for iftaar".
Mid-morning I get a call from an acquaintance who's invited us to iftaar, could I prepare a small presentation on the fadeelat of Ramadhaan? Yes, technically I could; but just then it feels like short-notice…plus I wasn't really planning on going to the iftaar.
I planned on spending the day at home, to give my son special memories of his first fast. I remembered mine..dressing up in a green, glittery outfit made by my grandmother, followed by a shop-for-all-the-food-you-feel-you-can-eat fest , topped by the promise of post-iftaar pistachio ice cream at Monginis' ..can indulgences get better than that?
Today, I'm determined to find out.
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